Conversations about weight #5

I hope you all had a wonderful Wednesday! Today I helped out on a school trip to the Imperial War Museum and HMS Belfast, so I’m pretty tired but both were really interesting so it was a good day. I’m secretly obsessed with ships I swear, clearly too many trips to the historical docks in Portsmouth as a child!

This is another of my conversations about weight posts and today I wanted to talk about things that I’d really appreciate stopping. It may be a little harsh but I know several serial offenders for each!

People asking how much weight you’ve lost (and it’s probably just as annoying if people constantly ask how much weight you’ve gained). I get that they’re trying to be supportive but it’s so personal! When I’ve reached a milestone, I’ll tell people. Otherwise it’s just a bit awkward, especially if it’s after a few days where you’ve struggled and put on/lost weight. Obviously if they’re your doctor/person you’re on the same journey with that’s very different.

The aches and pains brigade! At what point did it become socially acceptable to come into work and moan all day about how your legs hurt because you ran 5 miles yesterday (when it’s someone who does that every week)? Or people poking themselves and going ‘ouch’ after an exercise class. If it’s completely involuntary because your muscles are actually destroyed/you’re covered in blisters –  yeah, I get that. Otherwise it’s just weird boasting of who managed to make themselves hurt the most.

Telling people about every single bit of exercise you do. Recently I’ve been going swimming most days, until yesterday when my boobs went flying during aqua aerobics I didn’t really feel the need to inform anyone of this! Of course, celebrate the awesome things. Celebrate the personal bests, celebrate being able to go further and get excited about trying new things! Just when it’s always the same, it gets a bit tiresome tbh.

^ that’s me feeling super awesome. EVEN if I am a size 18-20 and obese. I’ve always had to stick my chin out if I don’t want a double chin, even at the very bottom of my healthy BMI. So LOL

Calling food ‘naughty’. I’ll probably say this a million times but unless you’re a kid stealing from the cookie jar/sweet store – the food you’re eating isn’t ‘naughty’. You’re not a three year old, unless you are in which case yeah, keep calling that food naughty. It’s also not bad or evil or any of those other words. It’s just food. Some of it is arguable healthier than others but none of it is bad. Okay if it’s mouldy/rotten, then yeah it’s gone bad.

The constant ‘oh dear they’ve put on weight’, ‘they’re looking really good now they’ve lost that weight’. Or we could just not discuss people’s weight? Their weight has no bearing on whether they’re an awesome person… Also, the idea that because someone has lost weight they automatically look/feel better? Flawed. Bar the crippling acid reflux I’ve never felt more comfortable in my body.

The thought that you can’t have an indulgent weekend of eating whatever you desire without putting on a stone. Even when I was at my worst mentally this year, it took me 6 months to put on 2 stone. Six months. Okay, I am really active but it shows that it does take a long time to put on significant amounts of weight. One weekend/week/holiday isn’t going to RUIN EVERYTHING.

I think that’ll do for now 😉 Do you agree with these? Or do you think I need to chill out haha?

xo Fleur xo

Birthday Wish List

As my birthday is coming up (15th February, eeek!) I wanted to put together a wish list. I love wish lists in general, seeing the things people are really wanting to buy. As I have some Christmas money I haven’t spent yet and I may get some money for my birthday, these are the things I’ll probably end up treating myself to.
Birthday Wish List

NYX Cosmic Metal Lip Cream
These look SO gorgeous! I want all the shades tbh but I’d really love a green. I’ve been loving orange eyeshadow looks and the combination with a green lipstick is one I think is gorgeous. Purple is also pretty awesome.

Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance Palette
I’m still not 100% decided on whether I truly want this but it does look so gorgeous. I know I’d be able to create both looks for work and more dramatic looks with it. Plus it’s just so Instagramable LOL

BH Cosmetics Foil Eyes Palette
I want to add to my collection of foiled eyeshadows and the price of this palette is so reasonable. There are more neutral shades than I’d like but there are some gorgeous shades to bring out my inner mermaid.

Sugarpill U4EA Lipstick
Just look at it! I’ve wanted a teal lipstick for a while now and this one looks like perfection.

Sugarpill Pro Pan Eyeshadows
Sugarpill eyeshadows look like and are reviewed as the most dreamy colourful eyeshadows. I can’t justify buying these for myself, so using present money might be the answer…

Milani Luminoso Blush
Everyone and their dog talks about this on YouTube and it looks like a shade I’d love and wear every day. I’d also really like to add Makeup Geek’s Secret Admirer blush to my collection, oh and all their highlighters for pale skin *heart eyes*

MUA Luxe Velvet Lip Lacquer – No Shrinkin Violet set
I’ve got one of the MUA liquid lipsticks and it’s actually amazing for the price. I want to add a few more fantasy shades to my collection and this selection looks so pretty.
I love having my birthday in February, I think February is like the Tuesday of months. Too far from Christmas and too far from spring/summer. It’s usually a gloomy month, full of rain and cold. So having my birthday in the middle of it means I’m always excited and I get to do fun birthday things!

xo Fleur xo

Film Review: Hacksaw Ridge

Having seen the film Hacksaw Ridge on Tuesday, I really wanted to post a review of it on my blog. I thought the film was absolutely incredible, so thought I’d take a break from my normal content! Maybe I can review more random things in future…

I’m not going to discuss the plot because I think the trailer gives the perfect insight into the film, which isn’t always the case with trailers!


Hacksaw Ridge shows war in a way I know I’ve never felt before. I know Saving Private Ryan is supposed show how awful war can be but, obviously apart from the initial rush, it feels like you could cope, could survive war. With Hacksaw Ridge that definitely isn’t the case. It shows this terrifying, beyond loud, absolutely impossible situation where their survival seems completely out of their hands. It is a situation which I would never want to be in and makes PTSD appear almost a logical conclusion.

Hacksaw Ridge also shows the amazing contrast of how wonderful humanity can be against how awful, how destructive, how horrifying we can be. That it is a true story only makes that resound even more. I think stories like these need to be told, to remind us of all the courageous people who have done incredible things. It’s inspiring that someone could be so courageous and strong, to stick with their principles no matter what was thrown at them.

If you watch the trailer and are interested in the story, go and watch it. It is brilliantly acted and directed. It is horrifying and uplifting in equal measures, it may leave you feeling emotionally drained like it did me but aren’t those the best films?

xo Fleur xo

 

Conversations about weight #4

So, it’s officially February and hopefully that means the toxic January diet talk will have ended or come close to ending. I’m really hoping it will. I swear my heart hurt when I saw a colleague mentally beating herself up about eating a doughnut.

I may be trying (and succeeding) to lose weight to improve my health but I’ll keep eating chocolate, pizzas and onion bhajis without guilt thanks. On which note, if you didn’t get to try Dominos Indian pizzas you really missed out, it was a few years ago now and I still miss it. Having onion bhajis on a pizza? It was the best thing ever.

I don’t know why but this January I kept thinking about the show ‘Supersize vs Superskinny’ – possibly one of my mumma’s favourite TV shows and therefore one I unfortunately saw a few too many times. The entire idea of the show is slightly horrifying now I think back on it but the line that keeps popping up in my mind is this one:

“You’re so skinny and eating so little that your body is eating itself.”

I am paraphrasing here but I just remember thinking about that phrase and finding it the most awful concept. I mean, eating itself, blergh.

YET when people are losing weight, regardless of what weight they start at – their body is eating itself. Instead of using the food we’ve eaten for energy, we’re eating ourselves. It’s just a natural part of being human. If we don’t use our muscles enough we start breaking them down. In fact, our bodies are constantly breaking down old cells and making new ones… So, yeah.

 

Onto something else that’s been bugging me, I’m so done with people saying ‘oh fat people just need to move more’ or even ‘they need to get off their arse and move’. Below are my steps for last Monday-Saturday, tell me again how I’m not moving enough?

Being fat doesn’t mean I’m not (relatively) fit and active! I know when I did have a healthy BMI, I was often outpaced in exercise classes by people who were (most likely, like I am now) obese.

I hope your January went well and the constant dieting talk wasn’t too stressful, whether you’re trying to lose, gain, maintain or don’t give a flying fuck about your weight ❤️

xo Fleur xo

FOTD: New Year, New Sparkle

I don’t know about you but I don’t think the sparkle and colour should all disappear after Christmas and after we’ve entered a new year! I think January is exactly the time we should be finding some more sparkle and colour to light up the gloom outside. There have actually been a lot of gorgeous days this January, which I know I’m very thankful for but there’s been plenty of gloomy days too, today for example!

This look was very much inspired by this look created by Phee (if you didn’t already know, I’m obsessed with her products… I’m pretty sure you all already knew that 😂).

It was also my first time using the Real Techniques version of the beauty blender and honestly, I could pat my face with that all day. Heavenly doesn’t come close! I also really enjoyed using it for cream contour and can’t wait to try using it with cream blush. 

Base

  • Bourjois Healthy Mix Foundation in 52 Vanilla
  • Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer in Warm Medium 3
  • NARS The Multiple in Tuomota
  • NARS Blush in Douceur
  • Makeup Revolution Iconic Lights & Contour Pro
  • Phee’s Makeup Shop Pressed Highlight in Original

Eyes

  • Absolute New York Eyeshadow Primer
  • Rimmel Stay Matte Pressed Powder in Transparent
  • NYX Ultimate Eyeshadow Palette – Brights
  • Sleek Makeup iDivine in Storm (matte black for liner)
  • Phee’s Makeup Shop Luxe Highlighter in Glo Up
  • MaxFactor False Lash Effect Mascara in Black

Eyebrows

  • MAC Eyeshadow in Omega
  • Makeup Revolution Ultra Brow Arch & Shape
  • ModelCo More Brows in Light Medium

Lips

  • NYX Macaron Lippie in Violet

I can never quite capture how gorgeous a highlight this is. Maybe one day I’ll have a better camera/lighting so I can *fingers crossed* – it was a little sprinkle of unicorn magic on a dull January day.

I hope you are all having a good start to the new year and making sure you take enough time for yourselves amongst all the resolutions ❤

xo Fleur xo

Blogging Resolutions

Last week I posted my New Year’s Resolutions and over the past week I keep thinking of resolutions I want to make to improve my blogging. So, to make sure I actually do them… I’m writing them down and sharing them 😉😂

1. I want to improve my photography. I’ve definitely done this over 2016 and having an iPhone with a decent camera has helped so much. I really want to move over to using an actual camera though, getting some of that background blur in my life 😍 I’d also like to start adding text to pictures because it can look gorgeous!

2. I’m going to continue taking part in at least one blogger chat per week on Twitter. I love talking to people with the same interests as me – especially when I know so few people irl who love makeup/blogging/reading blogs

3. I’d love to attend a blogger meet up and actually meet some of the amazing people I’ve ‘met’ online.

4. I want to spend time learning how to do liner, in particular the amazing kinds of graphic liner I’m so inspired by.

5. I’m going to continue blogging at least once a week. I enjoyed having that bit of a challenge to get content out. I also enjoyed the lifestyle/social commentary posts I started writing on Wednesdays. I want to continue doing posts like that but they aren’t always something I can easily write. I have several on difficult topics that are half written!

6. I’d like to do more makeup looks inspired by the things I love in life. For example I’d really like to do some Overwatch inspired looks.

7. I want to get to the point where I feel like having my own domain is worthwhile. I’m hoping I can get over my self-consciousness and promote my blog more! I also want to get more familiar with WordPress so I can improve my blog further. I guess these are several resolutions but I’ve put them all in one because they’re all linked.

Have you written any blogging resolutions? I’d love to see them if you have!

xo Fleur xo

 

My Resolutions 

I know a lot of people don’t find making resolutions helpful, I know for me it used to be just another way I’d feel like I’d failed myself. I also don’t believe in the whole ‘new year, new me’ thing, I’m hardly going to become a different person overnight. I’m going to continue being a makeup loving, gaming unicorn.


However, I do find having goals helpful. Especially if those goals are achievable and are things I really want. I could make a list as long as my arm of things I’d love to achieve this year but that really would be setting myself up to fail. So here are my resolutions that should help make 2017 a great year.

Find a new job. Now I’ve finished my masters I need to move onto a new job, one that I’m not ridiculously overqualified for. I’m also beyond bored of my current job – there isn’t any challenge anymore.

Lose weight. 1 stone by mid February then a total of 3 stone by the end of the year. This will take me to within a stone of a healthy BMI. This should also mean my acid reflux is back under control.

Get my fitness back. I want to do at least three workouts a week. Ideally I’d like to be back cycling 50 miles by the summer but I think that’s unrealistic and I don’t want to push too hard and injure myself.

Spend less time on social media. I love social media but I can easily spend an entire evening on Twitter and get nothing else done. I want to spend that time being more productive. I’m going to do this by setting timers when I open apps.

Makeup! Put aside time at least once every two weeks to create a fun makeup look. I also want to continue developing my skills and trying products I rarely use like liner and glitter.

Go on a holiday this year. I haven’t been on a holiday since 2015 and the last holiday that really felt like one was in 2014. So I think saving up and making sure we have a really good holiday in 2017 is a must.

Contact friends. I want to write a letter to everyone who sent me a Christmas card, as I never got round to writing mine. I also want to try and message the people who are most important to me every two weeks or so.

I think these are all reasonable resolutions and I’m excited to start working towards all of them! I’d love to see your resolutions too – so do comment with your links if you’ve written a resolutions post!

xo Fleur xo